Spiritual seeking is a dance that we do because we are not quite ready to tell the truth. It is a distraction to feeling what it is that you are really wanting. It is so important to tell the truth of what you are longing for. When we tell the truth, we bridge the gap back to our true nature. Before you became anything, you were the unknown. Let yourself be swallowed up by what you are afraid of.
Suffering is a clue, your own personal koan, that something has been placed outside of yourself. Suffering arises when we imagine that having things outside of ourselves is going to alleviate our longing for wholeness. This becomes a habit of mind. Trace all projections back to the place where imagination was birthed, back to the emptiness that you really are.
Seeking begins as soon as we feel that we have lost something, and the root of it begins in childhood. Beginning first with the birth of the sense of “I” when we are very young, and then later over the course of one’s childhood, we lose the felt sense of connection to source. Naturally, we long for what we feel we have lost, and we innocently and mistakenly run after things imagining that what we are missing will be found in things outside of ourselves. All the while, what we long for is inside of us, ever present, always available.
Why do we so often end up not doing what it is that we think we should be doing? This is because we are always doing what we want to do, regardless of how it seems. How do you know this? Because it is what is actually happening. The conflict lies in believing that we should be doing something different, not in actually what we are doing. Being true to ourselves in the moment, is what is important.
Even though relationship seems to be happening outside of ourselves, it really is happening within. All relationship is with the self, it just seems to be with others. How we treat ourselves, how kind we are to our own thoughts, and feelings, is how we will be treating others. It is a natural extension from the inner to the outer, which in the end, is one thing.